Pregnancy vs. Body Image

So, I have a confession: I'm still in wanting to lose weight mode. Not that I am. I'm not active in my desires, don't worry. It's more just feeling fat instead of feeling pregnant. Yesterday at church I got a lot of compliments about how cute I looked. I know it is because I am now starting to "show." (Actually I've been showing for a while, but now I'm starting to wear clothes that show that I show since I can't fit into my other clothes). It would be all fine and dandy if I wasn't just 16 weeks along. I am now wearing maternity clothes that fit when I was 7 months pregnant with Corbin because I know they won't fit me when I get that far along this time. I know it's not that big of a deal. It just is a little depressing sometimes. I hate the in between time before I really start to feel pregnant (aka look pregnant instead of fat and feel the baby so I know it's more than just fat in there). Hopefully it won't last too long.

I AM excited for this baby. Nervous about being a mom of 3, but excited. This pregnancy just seems to be taking more of a toll on me (emotionally and physically). Maybe that's to be expected for a 3rd pregnancy.

So that's my rant. No big deal, I just needed to get that off my chest. Now to cleaning my house...

Foot Soak

Somehow Spencer saw Matt's foot bath up in the cupboard the other day. Ever since he saw it (and asked what it was), he has been asking to use it. So, one day I gave in (I think it was Thursday). I was hesitant because I knew he would make a mess with it. Yep, I was right. Water everywhere! He sure loved it though! He still asks to do it when he remembers (which isn't too often now that I put it away again).

Remembering Me

Today I've been trying to remember me. You know, the me that used to like to play the piano, crochet, sew, create, have fun. Not the me that is mom. I've realized that I've lost that part of me in my effort to be a good mom and it has totally backfired on me. So, after cleaning for 3 hours (a marathon for me, but I had a friend watch my boys), I decided to do stuff that I want to do instead of spending all day feeling deprived of myself.

I started practicing the piano. Not just playing (like I do once a month), but I started a practicing routine. I got out my old lesson books. Of course, since I'm so rusty, I need to start at the beginning of the books, but that's ok. I forgot how much I love to play because usually I'm practicing to fill in for someone at church and I get frustrated because it doesn't come easily. This will be good for me.

I worked on some crochet. Now that I can get to my yarn (I cleaned the craft room this morning), I could find a project to finish and the yarn to finish it with.

I'm thinking about starting an etsy business with sewing cloth diapers. I'm not sure though. I know it will take lots of time, and I'm not sure I want to invest that much in it. I did, however, have fun rummaging through all the cute little newborn girl diapers that I bought a while back in hopes that someday I will have a baby girl. This new little baby is going to be wearing girly diapers whether he/she is a boy or a girl. :)

I even did a little preschool with Corbin today. I haven't really done much with preschool since Christmas. Partly because I've been feeling yucky. Partly because I've just been lazy. Partly because it just didn't sound like fun. I really do like doing it-- I just need to get back into it. Corbin seemed to like the attention too.

So, I'm rediscovering me. Now I just need to work on the having/being fun part. I think I need a girls night. It is so easy to forget that I am more than just mom when that is all I ever do. I am realizing more and more how important it is to take a break and do something I want to do (not just take a nap). Wish me good luck!

Corbin's 5th Birthday!

I can't believe Corbin is 5! Such a big boy! He was so excited to turn 5. He got spoiled (mostly by grandparents). Since his birthday was on a Sunday, we went to the Discovery Center Saturday (see earlier post) and we did the rest of the stuff Sunday. He got tons of Legos (what he asked for) as well as so many other fun things!